Friday, December 20, 2013

Keep on Drumming

Sometimes I feel like I'm not doing enough. I'm not volunteering, working, exercising enough. It seems like when I try to add one more thing the table tilts and kids get sick and again I'm stuck at home. I was having one of those moments when I dropped Luke at school Wednesday. He went with shoes on that his feet were stuffed in because after ten minutes of looking for his shoes we had to walk out the door. I was feeling again that I wasn't enough. Then the Little Drummer Boy came on the radio, as the tears rolled down my cheeks I heard the Holy Spirit whispering, all God wants is for you to play your drums...do what you are doing it is enough for him...in giving of yourself to your family you are enough. So to all moms out there feeling the pressure not just during the Christmas season but everyday when you lay your head on your pillow and think of everything undone...what you did today was enough..and so you played for Him on your drums....
As you changed the baby's diaper...
As you loaded the dishwasher...
When it took 15 minutes longer to put the littles to bed because they waited til you'd gone up and down the stairs five times already to ask for their glass of water...
When hubby gets home late and you are up to your neck in homework and bedtime but he still would love it if you heated up his dinner plate...
When the line at the post office is really long so you let your 3 year old bring in his sword (which is a vacuum attachment) and you see the smiles it brings to the other patrons (even the one gentleman that got hit once or twice...
Holding your child as they puke and praying you don't join them...
Lighting the Advent candles and reading over the little ones jabber and the older one burning the pine needles in the candle flame...
Listening to air packs being popped as children's feet stomp them and not saying no even though your ears are ringing...
Letting the kids wrap presents and trying to remember what's what because you didn't have the tags when they did it....
Making it to all the school Christmas parties because your presence matters more than the presents...
So I will keep playing my drums the ones I've been blessed with and stop worrying about not doing enough, more will always be there. Someday my drums will change a little (hopefully not too much) and so will you'd but as long as we keep playing for Him we are enough!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

You are wise beyond your years.